SEX CHANGES EVERYTHING

'sex changes everything'

but it turns it into everything else.

god i've been here before but not with you.

in the dark of the park you wander aimlessly away from me at a 45° angle

and i yell after you but i am yelling at jason

'why do you always do that!?'

and to the stars

'ì thought we were hanging out'

and i find a place behind a tree and i want to throw a rock at you

and make your head bleed.

i sit and watch the stars and contemplate getting up and running home

making you worry

and feel bad for being an asshole

but you come back

i hit you a few times

and we walk on in silence.

she walks without looking back until she gets home and realizes she's left him behind intentionally and feels both fueled and hurt by her own gross emotions, her own drama.

the tightness is back and it was first there in her chest

when she and the other man fucked

and stayed together

and killed themselves

and killed eachother.

i am not sad i am not sad i am not sad